Tuesday, December 7, 2010

frustrated

Alzheimer's is a bitch.

Excuse my French, but there is nothing I abhor more than this vicious disease that is taking both of my remaining grandparents away from me one memory at a time.


Screw you, Alzheimer's.  Screw.  You.

6 comments:

Anonymous said...

Worse is that your risk of developping the disease yourself is doubled.
Those who have a parent,grand parent or sibling with Alzheimer’s are more likely to develop the disease. The risk increases if more than one family member has the illness. When diseases tend to run in families, either heredity (genetics) or environmental factors, or both, may play a role.

Nikki said...

re: anon. No kidding. Both of my grandmother's have it currently. Both of my grandfather's died of heart disease. I'm doomed no matter how you look at it really.

After watching the suffering of three of my grandparents (one had passed before my birth) I would much rather lose my physical health (i.e. heart disease) than mental health (alzheimers).

I'm counting on major medical breatk throughs before I reach old age, though. Insha'Allah!

neco said...

i feel you, nikki. my paternal grandmother died of alzheimer's, as did two of her sisters, and one of her brothers committed suicide when he was diagnosed rather than "go crazy," as they called it back then. toward the end of her life, my grandma was convinced, among other things, that my brother and i were her children, that my dad was her husband, and that my mother was the "other woman." it was the most horrible thing i have ever had to witness. like you said, i am praying for some kind of medical breakthrough before we reach old age, insha'allah. it is a scary, scary disease, and i'm so sorry that you're having to watch your grandparents endure it. much love.

Muslim&Proud said...

agreed! my grandma is completely out of it. she sometimes calls my mom "mom" she' just smiles at me and when she is lucid i think she realizes who i am but not anything else. my dads parents haven't had it yet elhamdollah but two of my grandpas siblings have had it. one it starting to get bad but the other was horrible. but they were all in their late 70s when they developed it so theyve had a long life elhamdollah.

Nikki said...

Both of my grandma's did lead long, healthy lives up to this point. One is 77 (78?) and has only gotten bad in the last two years (since my grandpa's death she had a sharp decline). The other is 88, and while diagnosed about 5 years ago, things weren't "bad" until a year or two ago. The sad thing is, what I think is "bad" now, might eventually seem "mild" compared to what might be coming. I honestly sometimes pray that Allah will take them before that sad day comes. Either way you've lost them, but death, at least for me, is easier to deal with than being forgotten.

Nikki said...

The one grandma who is 88, we've always been super close. Everyone says we're just like one another (and we are, in looks, attitude, sarcastic humor, etc. etc.). She was my friend, not just my grandma. And now I miss her, but she's still here... it's an incredibly heartbreaking experience.